Why Torment Thy Soul With Such Darkness?

A reader ask…

“Michael, What is loneliness to you? For me it is getting out of the bed in the morning hoping time goes by fast enough that I will be back in my coffin (bed) in no time.

It’s spending Friday alone watching tv shows and movies that I have no interest in. Switching my phone off for a week and a half to find only two miss calls which is from my dad.

Being lonely is just getting calls from someone that I know is using me, but I keep them on the phone as long as possible so I can hold off my thoughts of misery.

Loneliness is being desperate sending messages to people that repeatedly ignore me like I’m non-existent.

It’s like a dark cloud of resentment that follows me and consumes me overtime.

Loneliness is anxiety, depression and most of all, it’s hell!

How can I save myself from such torment?”

— Paul G.

Thanks for the question Paul.

Loneliness to me is when you have no one to share the good and bad moments with.

Having no one to celebrate your accomplishments with and having no one to give you words of encouragement when you fail.

Loneliness is not going through your day thinking about the silly text she sent you this morning or the surprise call to ask you how your day was going.

Loneliness is not having a reason to push through the struggles knowing that she is right by your side every step of the way.

Loneliness is wanting to share the holidays and make memories with that special woman, but you can’t because you constantly fail and get rejected.

Loneliness is a disease that attacks your thoughts and deteriorates your self-esteem.